5 years sober with Christ as my anchor

On November 28, 2025, I celebrated 5 years of freedom from alcohol. Since moving to Texas in 2022, I have kept the simple “I’m too busy” excuse when it came to touching this blog. This morning, I truly reflected on why I have continued to renew this domain and let it collect dust.

Through it all - I still felt I was not enough; that my words were insignificant.

“I’ll start writing again once I graduate school… once I achieve # of years sober… once I become licensed to practice… once I am older and wiser…”

Then, I heard a little voice.

That little voice was Jesus Christ.

I have struggled with major depression since I was a child. I remember feeling the guilt and confusion weighing on me since I felt I had “nothing to be depressed about”. Depression

fueled my addiction to alcohol and I eventually walked away from my faith.

I’m grateful to have a wonderful support system, therapist, medications, hobbies, etc. The waves of depression do still continue, and the frustration sets in each time. I’m doing everything right, aren’t I? Why do I still feel this way?

I realized that I have been recognizing my faith, but not living by it. I could imagine Jesus sitting in the background patiently. Watching, waiting, and waving from a distance. I waved back in acknowledgment, but continued to turn away and try to figure everything out on my own.

This morning, my Bible study plan asked “What can you do to spread the Good News?” This is a common question for Christians, so I assumed the answer would be fairly cliché., but God answered before I even had the chance to close my eyes and pray.

God, it’s been years… but I didn’t question it. I immediately opened my notes and began writing.

Through the pain, heartache, achievements, and joy, God has walked with me through it all. His presence has always been there and His patience, love, and guidance far surpasses what we can find on this earth.

I firmly believe God has blessed each of us with a gift to give to others. Healing does not include abandoning all other supports, programs, medications, or whatever it may be in the process. It’s allowing God to guide our path. Science is the sidekick.

Christ has been the strongest foundation I have stood on, but I simply kept trying to build upon it with my own knowledge, understanding, education, and perspective. This weakened my foundation, as I relied on filtered and biased information from my imperfect human brain. Science and God guide my practice every day, and today, writing is what I was called to do.

We seek validation and answers from a world who crucified a perfect man. You have always been and will always be enough in His eyes. I am blessed to have continued keeping this domain and look forward to writing again.

“Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect.”

Romans 12:2